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Tuesday, April 18, 2017

More Surgery and My Depression

I suffer from having too many conditions which require surgery. The last time I counted them up this next surgery will be my #15.


It is nothing I expected out of my life, but since 2000, surgery really has been one after another. To say my health is a mess is putting it mildly. My mom and dad had two or three surgeries, that I remember, but nothing like this.

It has caused me pain, obviously, but it has also worn me out, made me choose staying at home rather than going out, missed vacations, graduations, fun-get-togethers, gardening, walking my dog, and a feeling of "is this all there is?"

I have gotten to the point of predicting what the doctor may say before my appointment. The technology that allows you to see your test results prior to the visit helps-- but sometimes it is so obvious. I even look up my conditions on the internet - to console my fears. But that isn't good because the doctor's view is often less severe as the description I had just read.
I have two good friends who are doctors, but never ask them, because I know I am not their patient and this is unappropriated.

My family doctor who sends me to all these specialists for their opinion, then gets mad when they put me on more and more medicine or suggest surgery. He has become my non-supporter.

As I face my next surgery, I am not concerned about the procedure. I know I will manage, but this becomes harder each time.  Pain on top of pain is hard to explain.

I know of at least two more surgeries I will need. That sort of puts things in perspective. I may need to write more on this topic.


#another surgery   #recovery   #health concerns   #perspectives of poor health  #medical specialists

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Dog Love

My pet Labrador has been my constant pal for several years now.
She does the morning wake up nudge, barks insanely at the mailman, and then sweetly brings me my mail, socks, loose fabric from my quilting stash, just about everything. She thinks with her nose and the words "Treat" "Go Bye-Bye" and "No, you can't go." either make or break her day.

So the sight of a growth on her side, a fatty tumor was of concern. The local vet told me $800.00 which was way more that I was able to do. Fortunately, I found a volunteer organization with vets who do surgery for less in Cincinnati called Pets In Need.
The surgery went well. But, there was an opening in the stitches and she was bleeding, so I didn't know what to do. 

I finally went to an Emergency Vet Care. The hospital is open 24/7 and I left her there for care at 9:30 a.m. and because of triage, the vet called me at 8:30 p.m. to say she was waking up and ready to go home.

I didn't spend the whole day at the hospital, I did go to dinner and cleaned my house with nervous energy I somehow found. But the call from the vet, explaining what she had to do, made a lot of sense and I was grateful.

My final bill between the two vets was nearly $800.00 anyhow, but I have my pal back. She is still in a neck cone and scoots lost crumbs all over using it much like a vacuum cleaner.

I was especially touched hearing the stories of all the other pet owners and the worry they were gong through. So many tears for so many pets that meant the world to them.

This is my quilt in the honor of my pet and the all the others who have canine or feline qualities and much needed people skills-- to love unconditionally.

                             Art Quilt by CBJ  "Cooper"


#dogs    #love my pet   #caring for pets  #art    #quilts   #veterinary care 
#cathyjeffers art quilts and mixed media