Unless.... I am totally going deaf. I am noticing my ability to only hear the negative.
In the past:
- I only heard the negative. I know I have said this before, but now, I don't have to take directions. Fortunately I am no longer working. (I am thrilled...) Plus, I no longer have to follow the directions from people I do not respect.
- But the damage is already done. I had a dream recently where I was laying in the hallway of my former school crying and saying " I can't do it anymore." They wanted me gone. I never revealed how sick I was.
I catch and hold on to negative comments as in anything NEGATIVE.
Because I am so weary of my current situation, I assume people will think I am irresponsible.
- People will think I unable to my meet many obligations.
- I shut myself down and manage to do with fewer people, ( AKA Friends.)
- I stay up late and sleep weird hours so I can say I was sleeping, and turned off the phone.
- I had a two hour phone conversation with my friend who told me many things but I still can't get it out of my head that he said I could be overbearing. Or maybe it was another word. I don't remember, but I reminded him that I had insecurity issues. Something he knows nothing about.
I need to remember toxic people are not good for me.
Update 9/16/13-- He says he never said I was
overbearing and gave me an example
for "why" he wouldn't.
I am working on new ART. Photos to come soon.